Millions of possibilities died between
Us
And still
We held each other
Closer
Closer
And closer
As close as two people could be
One
Your eyes
Warm brown
A chocolate kiss
A puppy's fur
A slice of fresh baked banana bread
Promising
Things that have been lacking
Since I put down my Bible
My crucifix
And picked up the world
A mess of string
And tried
To untangle it
Monday, December 15, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Thoughts
I know I should not be sad.
But I am.
Why can't I be normal?
Happy?
Realize how good my life is?
I feel badly
that I'm always sad,
because people have to put up with me
and my crazy
bouts of depression.
I need to stop depending on people.
And take control of my own happiness.
Why is it so hard?
But I am.
Why can't I be normal?
Happy?
Realize how good my life is?
I feel badly
that I'm always sad,
because people have to put up with me
and my crazy
bouts of depression.
I need to stop depending on people.
And take control of my own happiness.
Why is it so hard?
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Things that make me depressed:
1. Printed sheets, because they have a right way and a wrong way, and when you put them on the wrong way, they annoy you, but you're too lazy to strip your bed and do them again.
2. How your nose hurts when you cry lying in your bed.
3. How long it takes to make hard-boiled eggs.
4. How long it takes to cool hard-boiled eggs after you make them.
5. How you start eating stuff while making hard-boiled eggs, so by the time they're done, you aren't hungry anymore.
6. How food makes you fat.
7. How snow burns your feet when you go running bare footed in it.
8. Common sense that told you not to go running bare footed and in your night gown in the snow.
9. Common sense is always right.
10. How you always have to re-situate yourself while talking on the phone in bed.
11. How your arm ALWAYS falls asleep while talking on the phone in bed.
12. Sex
13. Society
14. Ineffective anti-depressants.
15. People who live to far away to give you hugs when you need them.
16. My father
17. My mother
18. My brother
19. My extended family
20. The holiday season
21. The fact church and state aren't separated.
22. Nice people die while mean ones always live for a long time.
23. The fact life isn't like a novel.
24. I won't be able to read all the books I want to in my life time.
25. The fact I'm too much of a coward to take the coward's way out.
26. College applications
27. Essays
28. The essays on college applications
29. School
30. Homework
31. The fact this is funny and you are laughing at it when I am feeling so depressed right now.
2. How your nose hurts when you cry lying in your bed.
3. How long it takes to make hard-boiled eggs.
4. How long it takes to cool hard-boiled eggs after you make them.
5. How you start eating stuff while making hard-boiled eggs, so by the time they're done, you aren't hungry anymore.
6. How food makes you fat.
7. How snow burns your feet when you go running bare footed in it.
8. Common sense that told you not to go running bare footed and in your night gown in the snow.
9. Common sense is always right.
10. How you always have to re-situate yourself while talking on the phone in bed.
11. How your arm ALWAYS falls asleep while talking on the phone in bed.
12. Sex
13. Society
14. Ineffective anti-depressants.
15. People who live to far away to give you hugs when you need them.
16. My father
17. My mother
18. My brother
19. My extended family
20. The holiday season
21. The fact church and state aren't separated.
22. Nice people die while mean ones always live for a long time.
23. The fact life isn't like a novel.
24. I won't be able to read all the books I want to in my life time.
25. The fact I'm too much of a coward to take the coward's way out.
26. College applications
27. Essays
28. The essays on college applications
29. School
30. Homework
31. The fact this is funny and you are laughing at it when I am feeling so depressed right now.
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