Quest for Beauty

Up till now, my life has been centered around my depression. I've decided to try something new. Now, my life is to be dedicated to finding beauty in unexpected places, just like in my favorite movie ever, American Beauty. I tried it today, and found myself smiling a lot more and noticing things that had before eluded me.

There is unimaginable beauty in heartache, for without sadness, happiness is less vibrant. Life is about contrast. God cannot exist without the devil, as my good friend Hannah Johnson once said in a spurt of genius.

Steven Cash once said to me, "Life is beautiful. Just fucking realize that." It took me a while, but I did.

Music

I have been drowning myself in music lately to get my mind off things, so here are some of my new favorites:

St. Vincent (aka Annie Clark)

I really love her. She has a way of making music that is beautiful, yet also disgusting (her word). She is also one of the most gorgeous women ever. I wish I could look like her, but I don't think I could pull it off. I am addicted to Marrow and Actor Out of Work. Steven was the one who alerted me to her genius.

Here's an interview:



And here's Actor Out of Work:



I've also been listening to The Juliets a lot. They're really small, out of Michigan, I think. But I really like the sound. The Sequel is my favorite. I found out about them through Jason T. Lewis, another amazing musician and writer. I was fortunate enough to bask in his Certified Master of Fine Arts-dom for a couple weeks one summer. His album has just been released as well. http://sadironmusic.bandcamp.com/

Here's The Juliets' Drive You Home:



http://thejuliets.bandcamp.com/

I got their songs because they were free, but now I feel like I want to pay for them. Maybe I'll find some more I can buy once I get my credit card set up!

When Steven Cash Is Famous

I will walk around telling random people in the street that I knew of him before they did. And I will get a false feeling of entitlement from it.